Lying in summer sunshine,
so far from my home.
I am beginning to feel like this whole life is a dream.
I can't remember what life was like before Finn.
and, I can only imagine what it will be like when he is gone.
Garden discovery walks.
Each morning we stroll through the green carpet,
waking from the oblivion of another sleepless night.
Reading Basho's simple journal on the porch
At this pace, I have time to watch the flowers grow.
To watch a baby,
is to look into the eyes of the earth -
to find moment after moment of perfection.
Life as it is,
in an imperfect world.
Perhaps this is reality?
and true love
in every breath.
Everyone has gone from the porch.
Only the two of us remain,
mother and son.
And, the wise sounds of the wind blowing through the trees.
You are still here,
like an oasis of love, awake for another day.
And, i think?
you will still be here even when you are gone.
For you are greater then time.
it feels like the world is racing
and spinning all around me.
Often out of control.
So much has happened in the short time i have been gone.
Forever has passed.
these eyes are gazing and open
slowly beside the lake, and then die.
So much has happened in the short time i have been here.
The world looks different everyday.
Every moment that i smile
and he smiles back at me,
there is an instant where the future doesn't exist.
Imprint your soft smile on my heart,
so that when i am quiet on the inside,
years from now
we can smile together at the trees.
I can feel him sharing with me from inside his cocoon.
'One day there will again be innocent joy'
without knowing why?
or what is going on?
Because, everyday Finn whispers secrets to me with his eyes.
and, I believe him.
thx endlessly to everyone for all the love and support.
lv sarah scotty finn and chinook